Monday, June 24, 2013

Flashbacks

I lie here crying
My heart is shattered
I am in so much pain
 
The pain won't go away
Its getting stronger and stronger
 
Why did you hurt me?
Why did you molest me?
Why didn't you listen to my pleas to stop?
 
I cried
I begged
I kicked
And screamed
 
I lie here crying
Remembering
The pain is so real
As if its still happening
 
The pain is in my heart
But it was in my body too
 
The pushing
The burning
The roughness
 
Its still there
15 years later
I am crying
I'm in pain
 
I'm drowning
I need to be rescued
But not by you
Go away
Don't touch me
Ever again
Don't you dare come near me
Or mine
 
Leave me alone
Stay out of my life
 
The pain is so sharp
So real
I'm crying
And I cannot stop
 
My home
My safe haven
Is no longer safe
 
My bed
Is no longer a place to rest
 
My body
Is no longer my own
 
My heart and soul
Are no longer whole
 
I'm dead
All I can feel is pain
All I know is hurt
 
I'm crying
I cannot stop
And will never stop
 

1 comment:

  1. Sending waves of love and healing. You beat those monsters!!!

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