Wednesday, January 29, 2014

The Life

Let me tell you about life
the life of a survivor

A survivor who was a victim
and rose up to the challenge of life

A survivor who blossomed
in the face of trauma

A survivor who's every success
is a downfall for the abuser

A survivor who continues to live
even after you killed her

A survivor who thrives and grows
despite your attempts to stunt his growth

Because a survivor is a fighter
a warrior and a champion.

And that is a life worth living,
the life of a survivor.

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Letting Go

Abuse; it's the shattering of ones heart and soul 
by a monster disguised as a human being

The pain of feeling the jagged edges poke into you 
as the pieces fall to the ground 
and the burning in your soul that follows.

But then you start healing.
looking at all the broken pieces laying around, 
you cry over what was and what could have been
yet commit to creating a masterpiece with those broken pieces.

And only then can you begin to love
love hands you the pieces and passes the glue 
so you can continue building and creating

Love shares in the joy of your accomplishments 
and holds you when the nightmares return.

Love whispers encouragement when your laying on the ground
and holds out its hand when you are ready to get back up

But love can only come when you learn to let go. 

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Take Me Back

Take me back 
to innocent times
before I learned
of pain and abuse

Take me back 
and teach me
the words I need to know
what is right and what is wrong

Take me back
and hold my hand
protect me
with all you've got

Take me back
and don't leave me
until you are sure
that I will forever be safe

Take me back 
to more pleasant times
of sweetness and laughter
and lets stop the sun forever.

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Moving Forward

I look in the mirror

Who am I

Am I a scared little girl
Am I a victim of abuse
Devastated and troubled

I used to think I was
I used to think that was my identity
That was the reflection I would see

But then I met you
And you changed me
You helped me see who I really am
Who I could be

A strong woman
A survivor
Proud and secure

So you taught me
And showed me
Through laughter and tears
Not to let my past define me

But to define it on my own terms
To hold the cards
And play the game
And be the boss in life

But then you left me
I cried and despaired

Who would show me now
Who would lead me
Take my hand as we carve a path
For ourselves in this crazy world

It was a tragic goodbye
No questions allowed
No time for answers

I prayed
And I hoped
Maybe one day you'll return

For that is my only comfort
That one day you will take heed of your own advice
Listen to your heart
Trust your instincts

Live life to the fullest
And acknowledge your feelings
Don't let your past define you
We all have a history

So lets forget what happened
Take my hand and we will walk together
Only moving forward