tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1696276882475556642024-03-13T15:19:11.026-07:00Dream a Little Dream of Hope and CourageAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.comBlogger63125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-3913668146108331322015-10-19T19:55:00.001-07:002015-10-22T11:54:17.825-07:00Sweet Poison <div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Years and years of silence</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Waiting to talk</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">To tell my story</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">To share what I know</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But you told me to shut up</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And so I did</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Kept quiet</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But now I'm done</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I'm done listening </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">To your abuse </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">To your lies</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">No longer taking orders</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Now I can't stop talking </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Everywhere I go</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It's all I do </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It's all that comes out</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I'm overwhelmed with an urge</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">To protect the young </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">A burning desire</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">To educate all</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">You complain that I'm poison </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">To your mind </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">With my ideas</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And now you think about abuse</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Inside I chuckle and laugh</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It's about time</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Oh and don't worry, Dad</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It's what I like to call sweet poison. </span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-47566737987077423662015-10-19T19:35:00.000-07:002015-10-29T11:09:22.847-07:00If I Told You the Truth <div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">If I told you the truth <br />
Would you believe me?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">If you heard my whole story<br />
Could you ever face me?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">When you hear I am a survivor<br />
Do you cringe?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Do you want to know it all?<br />
Will you tell me you believe me?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">If you heard me say his name<br />
Would you say it's not possible?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">If I choose to trust you<br />
Will I soon regret it?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">When I speak about all that he has done<br />
Will you tell me to stop telling lies? </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Do you want to know the truth?<br />
Or do you prefer a blissful ignorance?</span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-67468069293931064782015-10-19T19:33:00.001-07:002015-11-25T03:14:12.635-08:00Too Broken to Love<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">You said you loved me <br />
But I didn't believe you <br />
It seemed impossible.<br />
After all that, who would?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I tried to love you<br />
Maybe I did <br />
We did everything right<br />
But then I could never hold on.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Am I too hurt to love again?<br />
Too broken to be loved?<br />
Is loved reserved for the whole-<br />
perfect souls that never really lived?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">How can I love you <br />
If I despise myself?<br />
How can embrace your love<br />
If I can't accept myself?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Can you love me when I push?<br />
Will you wait for my tears to dry?<br />
I still love you as I run from you. <br />
I'm a broken girl waiting to be believed. </span><br />
</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-85997792991968753322015-09-18T07:48:00.000-07:002015-09-24T08:27:36.964-07:00Unsealed Fate<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Is it written in the stars <br />
Is it forever my fate<br />
That I am to be abused?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"></span> </div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Will I always be doubted,<br />
Never to be loved?<br />
Is that the life I'm meant to live?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"></span> </div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For decades I've suffered<br />
Been pulled and pushed <br />
Its almost like it's my destiny.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"></span> </div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I pray for the good<br />
I work to make change<br />
But it hasn't come yet.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"></span> </div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Is my fate sealed? <br />
Is it too late to try?<br />
Should I keep going?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"></span> </div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But, I don't believe it's forever<br />
One day, someday soon, it'll change<br />
And the goodness will begin to flow</span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-12206953632951267142015-08-24T16:36:00.003-07:002015-09-01T05:43:13.450-07:00Invisible <div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Just a small little girl<br />
Standing silently<br />
Wondering <br />
If I scream, will they hear?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Just a small little girl <br />
Deeply hurt<br />
In a rage<br />
I'm screaming, but they don't listen.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">So this small little girl <br />
Got the message<br />
And gave up<br />
You are invisible, they can't hear your cries. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And this small little girl<br />
Grew older<br />
Carrying the pain<br />
But never sharing the burden, because she felt invisible. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">She was a big little girl <br />
Attempting to heal<br />
From so much pain<br />
That's when he told her these magical words</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">"Just because they were blind, doesn't mean you were invisible."</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">She was a lady<br />
Validated<br />
From the abuse <br />
And the ones who let it happen while she cried out. </span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-62377951002554279502015-08-09T14:02:00.000-07:002015-08-20T06:05:24.580-07:00Damsel in Distress <div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Look at me<br />
See my strengths<br />
Want my beauty </span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">See me<br />
As a survivor <br />
A waging warrior </span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Want me<br />
For who I am<br />
And all that I can be</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Don't look at me<br />
And see me<br />
As a damsel in distress </span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Don't look at me<br />
And want me <br />
Like a problem to be solved</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">When I look at my life <br />
I see pain and hurt<br />
As building blocks to my blessings</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">When I see me <br />
I see my past overcome<br />
And a future to be built</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I want you <br />
To throw away what you see<br />
And see what I see</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Could you please? </span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-74585382855704780062015-08-08T22:29:00.000-07:002015-08-11T06:22:48.750-07:00Family, Where Are You? <div dir="ltr">
Family.<br />Where are you?<br />
I've been calling.<br />
Can you hear my cries?</div>
<div dir="ltr">
<br /></div>
<div dir="ltr">
I need some shelter. <br />
Give me love. <br />
The hate is raining down hard. <br />
Is this what you call a tribe?</div>
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<br /></div>
<div dir="ltr">
You left me alone. <br />
My heart is broken and bleeding.<br />
Yet your hearts, the bloodline's </div>
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Remain frozen and cold</div>
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<br /></div>
<div dir="ltr">
We've always been a tight-knit brood<br />
Now you locked me out<br />
Threw away the key for good<br />
And gave refuge to the abuser.</div>
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<br /></div>
<div dir="ltr">
Parents and children<br />
Shining light and life unto another.<br />
It seems the wind blew the candle out<br />
And theres no life to relight it</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-86372013409562563312015-08-05T07:03:00.000-07:002015-08-05T07:03:46.932-07:00Puzzle Pieces<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222;">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">When I was born<br />I was given one piece<br />The puzzle piece of life<br />But one piece does not do much good</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222;">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I held onto it and saved it<br />As time went on, more pieces were added<br />I received passion and energy<br />Eventually the piece for words too</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222;">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I found the pieces for relationships<br />Hidden away, getting kind of dusty<br />And I started to put it together<br />But alas, I did not have a complete picture</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222;">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It felt like I was losing pieces<br />My puzzle would never be complete<br />But then something happened<br />It changed how I was figuring it out</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222;">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222;">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I stopped living to complete the puzzle<br />I no longer attempted to find the missing pieces<br />Instead I just lived.<br />I took the pieces I had and used them daily</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222;">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222;">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And somehow the missing pieces came around<br />They seemed to appear out of thin air<br />Snapping into place<br />The picture started to appear</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222;">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222;">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I saw that was I was doing, the way I was living<br />Using the pieces from my early years<br />To create my picture now<br />Helped me find my way and my mission</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222;">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222;">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I fell into this role<br />I was just trying to clean up<br />And put together a thousand piece puzzle<br />But instead I created my life</span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-69150688373526890042015-08-04T21:37:00.000-07:002015-09-08T04:53:05.736-07:00Forgiveness<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Filled with resentment<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Burning with anger<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I keep a tight grasp on my feelings<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">With no room for peace to enter<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But it’s hurting, all too painful <o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Deeper than I remember the abuse to be<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Eating up at my life<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Inhibiting all chances of bliss <o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I expected more, deserved better<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Where was the love I sought? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">All I got was the abuse<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And now I’m living in the aftermath<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I want to soak up the joy<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But I keep drinking the poison<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I need to let go and breathe<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Release us both from my heart’s prison<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I see you now with compassion<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">You could not do better<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But alas, I can and I will<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I shall live with mercy in my heart</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I have forgiven the universe</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And the universe has given me serenity</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<o:p></o:p></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-49351615168727010272015-07-26T21:19:00.000-07:002015-07-27T06:07:49.660-07:00Deep Hearts<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Deep Hearts<br>
They hold more<br>
And feel more<br>
But mine also gives more</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">My passion is my strength <br>
Don't tell me to lose it<br>
It's the captain that drives<br>
My deep heart</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And in my deep heart <br>
I hold many emotions <br>
It pulls me in to your kindness<br>
But pushes me away when I'm hurt</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I was not born to be still<br>
And lead a quiet, mediocre life<br>
This deep heart can only keep pumping <br>
When it gives and leads and creates</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">You say I'm too sensitive <br>
They say I'm too intense<br>
But I say this is how my blood flows<br>
Its where I get my oxygen</span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-50786509982487394192015-07-19T18:54:00.000-07:002015-07-19T18:54:19.885-07:00Mirror Mirror On the Wall <div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Mirror, mirror <br />
On the wall<br />
Why can't I see<br />
What everyone else sees?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Mirror, mirror <br />
On the wall<br />
Is it true<br />
That what I see is distorted?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Mirror, mirror <br />
On the wall <br />
Am I as ugly as what I see?<br />
Or as beautiful as what they say?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Mirror, mirror <br />
On the wall <br />
I feel obese, I see the fat<br />
They say I'm not. Who's right?</span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-46721211663648111212015-07-05T22:43:00.000-07:002015-07-10T07:43:34.649-07:00The Murder of a Sunny Little Girl <div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I was a little girl, carefree <br>
Running free outdoors<br>
Laughing, giggling, playing<br>
Big bows slipping out of tight curls</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I would climb trees and jump down<br>
Play ball and chase all the boys<br>
Collect bugs and build forts<br>
I was full of joy, there was no reason not to be</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But that happiness was shortlived<br>
It wasn't meant to last, I suppose<br>
And then my childhood was stolen from me<br>
Stabbed in the heart, strangled at the neck </span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The sunny days turned grey and bleak<br>
Skipping and hopping slowed down to trudging steps <br>
What were once eyes lit up with laughter<br>
Now stared blankly ahead lifelessly</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I no longer went outdoors to play<br>
I was not happy and full of joy<br>
Instead I stayed home, slept too much <br>
Became withdrawn and sad</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">He stole my childhood<br>
He murdered the deepest part of my soul<br>
Those years I can never get back <br>
That life I can never relive</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But maybe, just maybe, I can live the rest of my life with renewed joy. </span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It's not over and that little girl is screaming to live again. </span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-36761505017388721782015-07-02T21:34:00.000-07:002015-07-03T09:32:08.254-07:00Independence for All <div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">To be free<br />
To choose<br />
To be free <br />
To speak</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">That is independence.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">To live <br />
In happiness <br />
To live<br />
In peace</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">That is independence.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">To speak<br />
Without fear<br />
To speak<br />
Without whispers</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">That is independence.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But I cannot live<br />
Until all our shackles are removed.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">If one survivor is living in fear</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">
None of us are free.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">So let us not celebrate freedom<br />
Let us not embrace independence.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Rather, let us work and create goals</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">
Towards freeing our chained brothers and sisters.</span><br /><br /></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-71178965640146304812015-06-24T17:16:00.000-07:002015-06-24T22:42:24.930-07:00The Love that I Dream of <div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I dream of a love so deep <br>
We will always hold hands<br>
To keep our heads afloat <br>Just so we don't drown </span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I dream of a love so kind<br>
Our dreams will become in sync<br>
Our work will support the other <br>
And the other will support our work</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I dream of a love so real<br>
When we correct the others errors<br>
There will sincere gratitude <br>
Instead of taking offense</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I dream of a love so beautiful <br>
At times I wonder <br>
Is it just a dream <br>
Can a love like this take root and live?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I dream of this love<br>
And I won't settle for less<br>
Because this love is in my heart<br>
And its the only love I know how to give</span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-40443464540122653492015-06-18T06:33:00.001-07:002015-06-18T06:33:29.088-07:00Always a Fighter <div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Everyone says I'm a fighter <br />
But no one knows my battle</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Everyone knows I fight<br />
But no one knows against whom</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The time has come to tell the truth<br />
I have been fighting half a battle</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And until I stand up and commit<br />
I will lose this fight against all of them</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But its not my battle, not my choice<br />
I must stand up and speak out</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Tell the world what happens at home<br />
When the abuse is in your own bed</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For all the girls who suffered this way<br />
For all the boys who weren't believed</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For all the siblings who were pushed aside<br />
For all the children who didn't dare speak up</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I will always be a fighter<br />
Because you deserve a voice </span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-40877833452615229682015-06-14T14:08:00.000-07:002015-06-14T14:08:40.682-07:00These Battle Wounds of Mine<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">If I could ask one thing<br />
Just one simple request <br />
That would help me heal<br />
Don't deny my truth</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">When I tell you my story <br />
Listen and listen with a whole heart<br />
Leave your judgments behind<br />
Because I'm showing you my battle wounds </span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Some of these wounds have healed<br />
Into jagged scars, etched into my soul<br />
Yet, some of these wounds are still open and fresh<br />
They burn and they bleed and get infected </span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">So when I show you these wounds<br />
In the way of my truths<br />
The deepest story I have to share<br />
Please listen and don't deny what is so obviously real</span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-28583817318818308742015-06-08T05:29:00.000-07:002015-06-08T05:29:37.446-07:00Dream a Little Dream <div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I have a dream<br />
A vision <br />
Of what kind of life I want</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The life I deserve</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">A life of peace<br />
Filled with joy </span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Healthy days</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">When pain no longer haunts me</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But all that is just a far off dream</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">A dream I cannot achieve by wishing alone</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">
It is nothing without a plan</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The life I deserve will never come unless I bring it in</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">So I set forth on this journey</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">
Of bringing my life alive<br />
By keeping myself alive<br />
And advocating for the peace and joy I deserve</span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-60803828200537356282015-05-30T20:17:00.000-07:002015-05-30T20:17:10.664-07:00I'm Sorry Body <div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I'm Sorry Body,</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For calling you names, shaming you<br />
and putting you down, lest you be proud.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For hiding you under layers of clothing <br />
ashamed for so many years.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For starving you and depriving you<br />
in hopes of getting slimmer.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For forcing pills through your system,<br />
depleting you of the little nutrients you had left.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For not respecting and abusing you.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For making you sick and ignoring your needs.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For not acknowledging the miracle that you are.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But most of all for hating you.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Please, forgive me. Let's be friends.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I promise to do my best to nurture and nourish you.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">To respect and take care of you.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But most of all, I will love you. </span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For you hold my soul and you deserve the best.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I'm sorry, body, I will do better going forward. </span><br />
</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-20572320962462809012015-05-25T19:15:00.000-07:002015-05-25T19:15:27.687-07:00Sisters<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Sisters.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Those who have one<br />
Feel blessed. <br />
They claim to be the best of friends.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Those who don't have one.<br />
Wish they did.<br />
They say they missed out on growing up with their best friend.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I have a sister. <br />
Yet, I don't feel blessed.<br />
We are not friends, we don't even speak.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Because all that connects us is our DNA.<br />
There is no love and connection.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Perhaps there never was.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">She chose to look the other way</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">
And protect my abuser<br />
She chose him over me.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">She knew the truth <br />
Yet, she claimed I was lying <br />
Because it didn't fit with her idea of happily ever after.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Sisters. They're supposed to stick by you through thick and thin. <br />
My sister. She went running when I needed her most. <br />
She's not my sister. She's just my parents other daughter. </span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-90628038881294993332015-05-20T21:12:00.001-07:002015-05-20T21:12:32.411-07:00Alone<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">All alone<br />
I lay here<br />
Sleeping</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">All alone <br />
I sit here<br />
Writing</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">All alone <br />
I live here<br />
Existing</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Because I am alone<br />
Without company <br />
And friendship</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Because loneliness consumes me<br />
When no one can understand <br />
And no one cares enough to either</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">So all alone<br />
I sleep. I write. I exist.</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">"Alone is what I have. Alone is what protects me." </span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Sherlock Holmes </span><br />
</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-25878555458673446242015-05-18T08:44:00.000-07:002015-05-18T08:44:42.899-07:00Does Anyone Care? <div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I used to wonder<br />
Do I matter?<br />
Does anyone care?<br />
What is my worth?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">My family-<br />
They have made it clear<br />
My abusers comfort is worth more than my life</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">All the therapists <br />
I saw as a child <br />
Ignored the obvious signs of abuse and couldn't be bothered with saving me</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">My teachers<br />
The school I went to<br />
Saw me as a nuisance more than they saw my value</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">So many friends<br />
Just walked away<br />
They didn't care that I was in pain, they needed to look good for shidduchim</span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div dir="ltr">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And now again, I wonder<br />
Do I matter?<br />
Does anyone care? <br />
What is my worth?</span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-25423786109304530132015-05-11T11:09:00.000-07:002015-05-11T11:09:17.001-07:00But<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I was little</span><div>
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">You were older.<br /></span></div>
<div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I was naive<br />You took advantage.<br /><br />I was trusting<br />You were manipulative.<br /><br />And you abused me<br />But it was more than abuse.<br /><br />You stole from me<br />However I'm not sure I want it back.<br /><br />You stole my childhood <br />My innocence and ability to trust.<br /><br /><i>But I gained knowledge and a deeper sensitivity towards others in pain.</i><br /><br />You stole my feelings of self-worth <br />The way I felt comfortable in my own skin.<br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><i>But I am learning to ignore societal standards of beauty and love myself despite my flaws.</i><br /><br />You stole my parents <br />How I loved them and felt their love back.<br /><br /><i>But as I learn to let go, I am able to make decisions that empower me instead of living in their shadows. </i><br /><br />You stole my future<br />It seemed there was nothing left to live for anymore.<br /><br /><i>But now my future shines brighter than yours, the star child, and I know all hope is not lost. </i><br /><br />You stole my body<br />Now it no longer responds the way it used to.<br /><br /><i>But I have learned to be more sensitive to my body and to listen to those silent messages.</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />You stole what I could have been<br />Everything I wanted to be is now out of reach.<br /><br /><i>But now I have been given opportunities that are far greater than anything I could have ever imagined.</i><br /><br />You stripped my mind<br />It is now haunted by the demons of what you have done.<br /><br /><i>But now I am healing and no longer haunted by the demons because you can no longer control me. </i><br /><br />You stole and stole selfishly without a second thought.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><i>But you can't bring me down. This has made me stronger than I could have ever hoped to be.</i></span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-10975457816047432302015-04-25T18:27:00.000-07:002015-04-25T18:27:42.695-07:00The Battle of my Recovery and My Abuse <span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />I was abused <br /> Taken advantage of <br /> My body felt dirty and shameful <br /> The pain was so deep, so intense <br /> I needed to numb it out <br /> I couldn't bear to remember<br /><br />So I stopped eating.<br /><br />I felt strong and powerful <br /> Finally in control of my body<br /> For once it was doing what I wanted <br /> And I barely remembered the abuse <br /> All I felt were pangs of hunger<br /> And it felt good, the physical pain was a relief<br /><br />So I continued starving myself.<br /><br />But the control turned into fear<br /> I was afraid of not being accepted <br /> For the body God gave me<br /> For the past I had to endure<br /> For who I really truly was<br /> And I was getting weaker, not stronger<br /><br />I was scared, numb, and weak.<br /><br />I ate so little, my body shut down<br /> My heart was barely pumping<br /> My brain shut down<br /> I couldn't think coherently <br /> My emotions had shut down long ago<br /> I wasn't feeling<br /><br />I was dying.<br /><br />I had an eating disorder <br /> They sent me to treatment <br /> And there I began to eat<br /> Not out of desire, but rather out of force<br /> When my body got its strength back<br /> My heart began to thaw<br /><br />I hit rock bottom.<br /><br />The emotions overwhelmed me<br /> The flashbacks overtook me<br /> All the pain I had shut out<br /> Finally resurfaced <br /> And the urges to restrict came back stronger<br /><br />But I held on stronger.<br /><br />I finally knew what it meant to feel alive<br /> I had gained back part of my life <br /> And I wasn't giving it back up so easily <br /> The eating disorder and the trauma told me I can't do it<br /> However the joys in my life that I only recently felt<br /> Tied a knot in my rope and forced me to hold on<br /><br />I continued eating.<br /><br />The journey is hard<br /> It's like walking through fire barefoot<br /> Every step burns<br /> But if I stop, it'll consume me<br /> And I'll never get out alive<br /> And that's all I really want<br /> So I'll just keep fighting every day, every meal, until I win.</span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-38806450925259534642015-04-04T09:34:00.001-07:002015-04-06T06:15:41.910-07:00It's What I Do With My Pain <span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Survivors. It's such a general term.<br /><br />We use it for anyone who has been through sexual abuse. But not everyone who has been through sexual abuse is the same. There are different types of abuse. And that leads to various effects. And all these people who have been abused turn out differently.<br /><br />There are the Forever Victims. They may speak up about their abuse. They may not. However, it is always about them. Their message is always the same. I have been hurt. I have been betrayed. You owe me now. You all owe me. Everything is about my pain and suffering, never about empowerment and moving forward. They pull out the victim card whenever they get the chance.<br /><br />Then there are the Survivors. The ones who have been hurt and acknowledge that. But then they decide they want to heal. They want to have a good life, turn the pain into power. So this is what they talk about, how awful the abuse was and how it transformed them, changed their lives. It's a powerful and important message, one we all need to hear.<br /><br />And then some Survivors become Advocates. They dedicate their lives to helping others become Survivors. They speak up about their abuse because they know how important it is for others to hear how devastating and how common it is. It is these Advocates who are changing the face of sexual abuse, today and tomorrow. They empower other Survivors just by being, just their mere existence inspires others. Because they make it about everyone else's suffering. Not their own. That was just the process they had to endure to save others.<br /><br />But let's not be mistaken and assume that it is the ones who have endured the worst abuse and with the least support who become Forever Victims. Interestingly enough, it is usually the ones who have been hurt the most who sympathize the most. They have been hurt and beaten and stepped on, over and over, so they understand how much it hurts. They want to make you feel better and not go through what they did.<br /><br /><b><i>"Above all be the heroine of your own life, not the victim."</i></b></span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823507658425811164noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-169627688247555664.post-33806009820965892102015-01-11T09:58:00.001-08:002015-01-11T09:58:39.754-08:00The Voice of Freedom<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I was a slave</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Living in silence </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But it was no life</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Without words </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And a story to tell</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I was a free woman</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Bearing a message</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Of hope and life</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Sharing my story</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">With everyone </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I was enslaved</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The suffering was so deep</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The pain so much</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I became numb</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">There was nothing else to lose</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And I lost my voice</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Only after I was set free</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Released my own chains</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">My sensitivity was restored</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I recognized the evil </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And was able to cry out</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And begin to create the art within me</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">(Based on the teachings of Rabbi Joseph Soloveitchik and Rabbi Avraham Yitzchok Kook)</span><br />
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