Blessings for the New Year

I've been blessed with so much

More than so many

Really I should be ever so grateful

For every breath I take

And all the walks and runs

At least I am healthy and alive

For all the trips to beaches

Hikes in the woods

and summer days at the fair

For all the songs sung

And the beats I dance to

And the music I can hear

And grateful I am

But, oh, how I wish

For more, for better

There must be a higher purpose

To this face they call beautiful

That cannot smile or laugh

Will these deep brown eyes

Ever cease to cry
And twinkle with life?

So I pray and hope

For strength and joy,

Peace and serenity,

Healing and love

For me and all of you

May we be blessed with

A sweet and happy New Year

These Demons

My nights have been filled with tears
Tears mourning over death
Tears wishing for death
Oh, the tears keep flowing

By day, I am consumed by the pain
Hoping for a respite
Yet, knowing it won't come
Dreading the next attack

The panic comes in waves
At times I am possessed
By a cool calm that is not me
But then my demons return

And they return with a vengeance
Not allowing for a moment of peace
They hold me tight
Until I can't breath anymore

My days turn into painful nights
and my nights to teary days
I'm living a nightmare
Unsure of day and night

These demons have captured me.